Happening Externally and Internally

 Hola. What's up guys? It's 2020, can you believe that?!

Aku rasa ramai orang expecting for this year, dreaming of it, thought it will be the beginning of excellent years! Tapi Allah tu sebaik-baik perancang, kita hanya hambaNya. There's so many huge issues happening currently. 

1. Who would have thought that countries faced/ are facing lockdowns and MCO because of coronavirus (Covid19)? Globally! A very critical matters of health and it affects the economy greatly. People are losing jobs and financial institutions are giving monotarium ( if I spelled it correctly😏), people wearing mask is compulsory, social distancing, bring sanitizers along with you, wash your hands with soaps for 20secs. Something yang kita tak pernah jangka akan berlaku. Allahuakbar!! It's a reminder for us guys. We should think about this and do something for akhirat. It's not gonna be that long my dear brothers and sisters😟. Aku sendiri tak cukup amalan, dah lah banyak dosa ni, scary weh. Moga kita dikurniakan husnul khatimah dan sempat bertaubat sebelum dijemput Illahi. Aamiin. Doakan aku guys.

2. Letupan Besar Beirut Lebanon. Serius, it was very big explosion! Mushroom-like explosion! Sourcing from stored ammonium nitrate -2750 tons. Tak sure kalau convert to kg tu berapa. Not in the mood to google. But i believe its a very huge amount tho. So many videos showing from different angles and the after-explosion shocks memang menyeramkan wehh! Allahu macam mana pulak orang2 yang terkesan secara langsung. Moga kau bantu mereka2 ini ya Allah. Saudara2 kami dan mereka yg menderita disebabkan letupan ni.😢 my prayers will always be with you guys.

So, things are happening and so is to my life. I'm now in a relationship with somebody who I've once dreamed to be with when I was a little kid. Now, we are an item. It just happened.. And of course lah dalam setiap hubungan ada pasang surut dia and hubungan kitorg isnt exceptional. So, I think it was just me. I really hate it when it comes to overthinking.  Aku cuma nak perhatian or atleast bagi aku rasa kau sayang dan hargai aku. Not 24/7 texting or call (but if possible, aku tak tolak haha). Just a short text like 'I love you sayang/ I miss you sayang/ Good morning cinta/ Good night syg etc' or few mins calls is enough for me. Is it that hard to spare some time to check on me? Aku betul2 tak suka kalau being in relationship, macam ni lah jadinya. I get overthinking, insecure, jealous, attention seeker, think about him until it affects my daily routine. YES, im a weak creature! I just loved my sayang. Salahke? "No, it's not wrong, but it's not right- Ode to the Mets♥" I need to be strong. Why people can easily ignores me??

Good night..