Saturday, August 8, 2020

Happening Externally and Internally

 Hola. What's up guys? It's 2020, can you believe that?!

Aku rasa ramai orang expecting for this year, dreaming of it, thought it will be the beginning of excellent years! Tapi Allah tu sebaik-baik perancang, kita hanya hambaNya. There's so many huge issues happening currently. 


1. Who would have thought that countries faced/ are facing lockdowns and MCO because of coronavirus (Covid19)? Globally! A very critical matters of health and it affects the economy greatly. People are losing jobs and financial institutions are giving monotarium ( if I spelled it correctly😏), people wearing mask is compulsory, social distancing, bring sanitizers along with you, wash your hands with soaps for 20secs. Something yang kita tak pernah jangka akan berlaku. Allahuakbar!! It's a reminder for us guys. We should think about this and do something for akhirat. It's not gonna be that long my dear brothers and sisters😟. Aku sendiri tak cukup amalan, dah lah banyak dosa ni, scary weh. Moga kita dikurniakan husnul khatimah dan sempat bertaubat sebelum dijemput Illahi. Aamiin. Doakan aku guys.


2. Letupan Besar Beirut Lebanon. Serius, it was very big explosion! Mushroom-like explosion! Sourcing from stored ammonium nitrate -2750 tons. Tak sure kalau convert to kg tu berapa. Not in the mood to google. But i believe its a very huge amount tho. So many videos showing from different angles and the after-explosion shocks memang menyeramkan wehh! Allahu macam mana pulak orang2 yang terkesan secara langsung. Moga kau bantu mereka2 ini ya Allah. Saudara2 kami dan mereka yg menderita disebabkan letupan ni.😢 my prayers will always be with you guys.


So, things are happening and so is to my life. I'm now in a relationship with somebody who I've once dreamed to be with when I was a little kid. Now, we are an item. It just happened.. And of course lah dalam setiap hubungan ada pasang surut dia and hubungan kitorg isnt exceptional. So, I think it was just me. I really hate it when it comes to overthinking.  Aku cuma nak perhatian or atleast bagi aku rasa kau sayang dan hargai aku. Not 24/7 texting or call (but if possible, aku tak tolak haha). Just a short text like 'I love you sayang/ I miss you sayang/ Good morning cinta/ Good night syg etc' or few mins calls is enough for me. Is it that hard to spare some time to check on me? Aku betul2 tak suka kalau being in relationship, macam ni lah jadinya. I get overthinking, insecure, jealous, attention seeker, think about him until it affects my daily routine. YES, im a weak creature! I just loved my sayang. Salahke? "No, it's not wrong, but it's not right- Ode to the Mets♥" I need to be strong. Why people can easily ignores me??


Good night..

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Mengapa kini kau berubah hati,
Aku di sini tetap akan menanti...

Bila kau hadir didalam diriku,
Indahnya bagai irama dan lagu
Bila kau jauh terasa merindu
Wajahmu terbayang dimataku..

#NINA
#khorhaimiikhwarmsookmakmaknakhaa

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Never Give Up

I would never want to give up on you! But please.. I'm not always a girl holding firm to her decisions. Show me or give me some hints so that I know I'm not wasting my time or yours. If you don't have any interest on me, just tell me so I can stop. But every single time I remembered you were saying that you love me and you did miss me, my hopes arise. Ilyt.

GOOD NIGHT

#KhorrHaiMiiKhwaamSookMarkMarkNaKa
#NINA

Wednesday, June 21, 2017


Sering ku memikirkan,
Adakah kau juga merinduiku sepertimana ku merinduimu,
Mengenangkanku sebagaimana ku sntiasa teringatkanmu...

Aku rindu,
Terlalu.

#KhorHaiMiiKhwaamSookMarkMarkNaKa
#NINA

Monday, June 19, 2017

Few days passed since I texted you. I really really miss you, but I just can't tell you. I've made a promise that I'll never bother you anymore but I'm the one who broke it.

I feel unwanted.
I do feel annoyed with myself
For I'm the one who's always look for you.
I look cheap. I feel cheap.
I don't want you to see me this way.

So I hope when its the time we meet,
it is the new ME. With positive vibes, the one who lives with dignity. Not ashamed with myself anymore...

Good night, I. Do meet me in my dream, for I've been missing you like crazy😔🌜

Sunday, February 5, 2017


Pesanan untuk semua: Hargai lah mama/ibu/mak/mummy/umi korang selagi masih ada. Buat yang kehilangan insan berharga ni, sedekahkan al-Fatihah buat mereka.

Nanti bila da tak ada jangan baru nak menyesal sbb xpndai menghargai. Moga Allah jadikan kami adik-beradik anak yang taat pd mama dan babah (aamiin), walaupun aku sbnrnya tgh makan hati dengan perangai kakak2 and abang2 aku ni. Aku mengaku aku bkn anak yang baik, tp aku cba untuk bahagiakn mama semampu aku. cuma babah je aku masih tk tahu dari mana nak mula. Just so you know, nini sayang sangat kt mama dan babah walau nini tak luah😢😢😢😢😢

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Macam mana nak husnudzon bila aku dah tak mampu nak husnudzon? it will takes lot of time and great effort. But I choose not to waste time. I am traumatized by your doing before and still.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Im not so happy today. Kinda blues I would say. Nothing really happened today. I woke up early at 6am just to sleep back and really awake at 7++am. I didn't do my lab report that should be submitted today in lab just now. It's clean and clear. My lab was at 9 and usually i'll take the 30-minutes-before bus. My hands were shaking while i was finishing the lab reports. I totally copied the senior's. My god! eventually had it settled and i took the zon 3u bus down there at 8.45am. Managed to arrive at lab on time. I guess😳. Run the lab and finished on 12++. Go back to zaba, bought my lunch (still not eat yet) and have to resubmit the proposal for sensory at 3 o'clock. Will have my lunch now. Bubye. Assalamualaikum.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

damn! we were over and I hate the decision i hd made! i couldnt do anything! pls help me get her out of my mind. this is frustrating me!

Saturday, August 8, 2015

hello hello!
Im back! how's your day, guys? good? uh-huhh *Fify Azmi's style*.
Okay I have decided to write my blog in English. This is one of the ways to improve my English as I have not speak for a long time. I think it is quite dull now. 
Actually, it is because of I, myself haven't practice speaking for quite a time. Plus, I admit I feel shy to speak in front of other people cause I feel i will have grammar errors, wrong sentence structures and etc. I have this  belief where I think I should only speak if I think my sentences are right and perfect. Moreover, I don't have high confidence to show up and speak. well, frankly speaking, it is not good for yourself. If you don't feel the failure for once, how will you learn from your mistake and step up? 

so, please pray for me and may Allah ease!

Let's take a look on my day today.
I woke up almost at 9a.m. 9 hours of sleep is still alright, wasn't it? Hahaha.. (my future mother-in-law might not be so happy about me woke up from bed when 'matahari da nak terpacak atas kpala')

I'm having my holidays now. *Please tell me it's understandable to wake up late?*
Yup, I will go for my 5th semester in UKM on September 2015. Then, it is about 2-months break and I have got less than a month to go back to Bangi. Live leisurely till you can I would say. hehehehehe 

like everyday, of course I will ws with Byhaa. like all the time. -Oh, I should introduce her to you guys first! Ok, Byhaa is a new friend of mine since few months ago. I can conclude she is one of my bestie now. A Johorean, same age as me but older by months. She was born on April 21st, 1994. Yep, a Taurus! She is taking her diploma in Bio-Medical Engineering. An engineer is pretty adorable, is it? :)-

So back to the stories. She went back to her college at 3.30 and she was safely arrived almost at 5. Alhamdulillah. 

Before that, I went to the Restoran Al-Asna together with Mama to buy Nasi Beriani nyum nyums as we didn't had our breakfast. yeah, it was brunch. so we bought four for both of us, Iin and Aon. Later on, we went to supermarket to buy groceries and everything. 'Barang dapur', the meleis called it. And to my surprise, mama wanted to buy crabs! (Hey, mama just mentioned about the ketam exactly after I typed this thing) Not the usual ketam. These are the ones we always 'bintu' with all my siblings and babah. Mama never wanted to buy it even though I resisted. She said she was afraid it's not halal. "2 alam".Oh my! I didn't expect this. You should had looked at my expression when mama told me that! HAHAHAHAHAAA anyway, I missed the old times eating that delicious cooking of ketam by babah together with my family. Oh I really really miss it! tsk tsk we will cook it tomorrow. Be prepared!

Move on to the next topic!
like always, I would check on my twitter, the notifications, the retweets and latest stories! That's it! I've got one. Actually, i had read about it since yesterday.

Okay, here's the story. The Malaysians on Twitter may already know about this. It was about a girl, FF, she's free hair already got a bf and another girl, Liena, a hijabster also had a bf. The story started when FF had screenshot liena's twitter with caption about liena's been flirting with FF's bf and it went viral. Liena's was said to interrupt the FF's relay with her bf.Firstly, I want to stressed up that I will not be bias to any of those two. It's just an opinion of mine. I have checked both FF and Liena's twitter. Read those tweets and retweets' from friends, boyfriends and outsiders. I think most of them didn't know the real stories and what had happened actually. For some cases, the one who faced it in the first place may not know, not understand, or interpreted the situation the wrong way. I want to speak Malay , may I? ok thanks! bila terpengaruh dengan emosi, akan berlaku la circumstances2 yang dijangka or tak disangka. dalam hal ni, FF menuduh Liena, *menuduh here I would say sebab kita tak tau pokok pangkal cerita jugak tkt jd fitnah and kalau betul liena di pihak yang salah then baru kita akan cakap tertuduh didapati bersalah-chewahhh mcm peguam plk", menggatal dengan bf dia, setiap kali dorang gaduh liena akan cari bf si FF ni. dan akhirnya, selepas dua tahun benda ini berlarutan, DM liena sudah, private ws tak jalan (menurut FF), kemarahan akhirnya memuncak sehingga dia bertindak 'screenshot' twitter liena dgn caption 'tuduhan' tersebut. ok aku pendekkn cerita je la.

to FF :
-i see her terlalu menyalahkn tudung as if takde point lain. again i said, im not being bias. kalau btl liena slh, tegur perangai bukan tegur pemakaian. sepatutnya, perangai kena dijaga selari dengan pemakaian kita, I agree. Tapi FF ni aku rasa jd semakin galak bila lbh rmai kwn2 and outsiders yg lbh menyokong dia kt twitter tu drpd si Liena. ANNNNDDDDD, one more thing yang aku rasa sangat tak patut. FF said Liena ni buruk. and so did most of the outsiders. friends, bukan ke semua yang Allah cipta tu cantik? Kalau ye pun perangai seseorang tu buruk, jgn menyalahkan fizikalnya kerana itu adalah ciptaan Tuhan. #notetoself

to liena:
-kalau betul u bersalah, u should sedar kesilapan u and rendahkn diri minta maaf. there still room for forgiveness for you. tapi kalau betul you kene fitnah you should defend yourself ataupun settle luar twitter. mengaku kesalahan you seikhlas hati and hope for the best of all of you guys.

so itu je till now. aku pun da bosan nak taip pepanjang kt entri ni sbb da terlalu pjg aku rasa. tp aku hairan about those outsiders, ramai yang cakap dorang tak tau cerita tapi said uollss tau that party is right and the other is wrong. saye sokong awak!EHHHHHHH, KATE TAKTAU CERITA? renung2kan dan selamat beramal. Assalamualaikum .





Saturday, August 1, 2015

Hye!!!! surprise surprise :D havent blogging for really long time since the latest post.
well, enough with the intro. so aku nak luah perasaan je since aku tk dapat nk tweet or post kt moment wechat sbb tkut si dia terasa. sbb aku syg. 
its been months sjak kita declare as couple and korang tau, some relationships, mula2 memang manis tapi da lama-lama jadi suam-suam kuku. knock the wood knock the wood! aku tknk relay ni jd mcm that type of relationships! mula-mula kau bukan main usaha nak dapat aku, sweet talker yes you are, but please, be a sweet talker and keep your words! aku sayang kau and nak bersama kau even the world is against it. you are different from the two guys I had as my boyfriend last time. Look ! I am WhatsApp-ing you now. aku tanya bilik yana tu jauh ke dr bilik kau. and kau tak jawab eventhough i said 'sape yang tak pandai jawab org tanye skg?' aku bukan sangke buruk. aku takut kita makin jauh. smlm da gadoh siap kau ckp 'da tawar hati'. ape yg kau ckp tu jd doa tau tak? kalau time aku je, tak boleh. kalau time kau, reti pulak kau nak aku paham. aku harap this relay will stay strong till the end. In Shaa Allah. Bye.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

ohhhhhhhh....frustnyerrr:((

melepas derr..he's not available..meaning : he is someone's bf:((
 hati ini hancur dan luluh keranamu~~~
tapi i will always be there to support Shakir Ali:))

lepas brapa hari dh x dpt online , akhirnya aku tweet attack shakir ali..lepass rindu wlpn x dlayan..!@#$%
haha..mcm biasa, apa gik..stalk him la jwbnyer..korek punye korek and my heart starts to break into pieces..i found this one pic of a girl ..she said bla bla bla and she's already taken by shakir ali!!!!like...really???!!aku carik lgik sal mpuan ya and found a blog..guess what? the header pic was shakir ali and that girl pic together..they were so close !!erggghhhh..jeles jeles jeles...hancur hancur hancur ... hati hati hati !!sedey gilerr arr..tp dlm twitter pun nang dh suspect nya tk ada gerek..tp mcm bkn org nok sma jk...nok gmba nya yaa tem 2009..jeles nya aku tem bca cmne cdak 2 bleh jd kapel..aduuuu

:::biarkan..biarkan..biarkan::

Friday, January 20, 2012

GREAT:)


hey..dont you think this is awesome?nevermind..it is to me:)..i screamed when i knew about this..i also knew that wehve to check our email to know the actvty in twitter..so dumb me..sory la mun ku suk glak...to make things greater , this is the FIRST TIME  ive got retweet from someone in twitter since i joined it :))sweet isnt it??hope this will last forever:))

anddd..one more thing..tadaaaaaaaaaaa


this seems better than tweeting the celebrities..i bukan anti-artis yeee..hemm
haha..btw, ngeso x aku??tauk bh aku sukkkkkk glak..tp nang patut nak??;)

eyyyyyyyyyy...i nak tgk match kedah..dh start!!!mai tgk sma2..chow dlu..asslm

Thursday, January 19, 2012

all about my hero :)

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuhh to all readers especially Niena syg

di hari jumaat yg penuh keberkatan ini marilah kita sma2 menghayati keindahan dn ketenangan serta kebahagiaan yg kta lalui :)

yerr...hihi
so , i nk crite psl makhluk indah ciptaan tuhan yg sorg nie , Ahmad Shakir bin Mohd Ali..dup dap dup dap..berdebar jantung ku bila mendengar namamu ~..haha..sotttttt...btw , i bc lam paper marek about him..
evrytme i take the newspaper i will turn to the back page: sport column and hope to read about Shakir Ali or Baddrol Bakhtiar ..and that's it ! TUAH AHMAD SHAKIR ; there goes the title:) at first i didnt realise it then i just smiled so big smpe tlinga..haha..in the papers they said that shakir knak paggil utk join the olimpic match qualifying thing whatsoever and he will play on this 5 feb's match !! yeay ! im soooooooooooo looking forward for this match..mai la tgk sma2:) * kedah's slang

oh noo..heroku , please score later k?hehe..unfortunately my decent guy , Badd is not gnna play in that match..kacau jerrr..huhu

so that's all for today..and i will post shakir ali's bio next time kali
*slalu jk slh mok taip sHakir or sYakir..it's SHAKIR actually!:)

ok..slmt hari jumaat..asslmualaikum

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

post from amal :) : hey ninie :)


hey ninie :) i have edited your blog and made a header for you . i'm not sure if you like the final result of your blog but i know i am :0

so please update more ninie :))) ! i will absolutely read your blog :))

p/s ; love yaaaaaa !~

Monday, January 16, 2012

NOTE FORM MEEEEEEE :))))

NINIE ! KU LOM EDIT BNYK GK P STILL ON THE WAY :)))) IF YOU READ THIS POST LAA :)))

Sunday, January 15, 2012

My Hero : Ahmad Shakir Mohd Ali :)

besides Baddrol Bakhtiar , i oso admire this awesome guy : Shakir Ali
he is a N9 striker so now officially i had become fan of N9 team :)

Introducing , SYAKIR ALI :)



OMGGGGG , he is so hotttttt !!! awwww...love3

shakir shooted two Goals when n9 team met Johor Fc in second match of msia super league :)
he made my night ! Ooppsss...dreaming of him :)

he's mine ! SOrry :)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

impossible

i remember years ago
someone told me
i should take caution when it comes to love
i did , i did
you were strong and i was not
my illusion my mistakes

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

my upcoming bday !

haha..sori la mun asa ku ngeso..niena , pa ku mok tlis tk..??mala jk knk soh update blog..adoo...lalala..epy upcoming bday to me !
arggghh , borink thp dewa !

Monday, August 2, 2010

in exam mode!∞

yes ..paper fzk n m3 dh blalu..daaaa~~ paper pi n chemist menanti..im coming uu!!adooyaiii
lom blaja pa2 gyk tk..gne la mok lulus..

to nur amalina mohd muhaimin , btol ka eja nma bpk kw ya?
smbong blit ~ bla mok cta sal **** n ***** ngn aku?? tdik kw xmok pdh ngn aku bh..

erm..aku tmasok lam list pserta2 kem nadwah..p x pat pegi ku..ku mok glak knak tggal sorg2 bh..cam besh jk..mcm jk la..azza , niena , tyrah , zyma , erna , n wafa pn dpt..p pahal cpah x dpt ??!!
ini x adil..! ee , phl la cdak plah ujong mggu tk??huhu..